Deception

   Your heart coming for me
   Like it’s mine
   While my deception reigns inside you
   Like it’s yours 

   You tell me you love me
   You tell me I’m a goddess, your goddess
   You tell me you adore me
   And I question you, we’re on the rooftop
   Would you answer the door naked if I asked you to?
   That guy walking alone down there, would you shoot him if I handed you a gun?
   Would you jump off this building right now if it was my wish?
   The gleam in your eyes scare me
   You’re a dog waiting for the stick to be thrown
   Out of the building and into the darkness ruled by moonlight
   Into the street where you’ll remain as a symbol of your love for me 
   —first as puddle, then, as memory—

   And then we settle, laying on cold concrete
   I see your hand hesitating, you think twice before trying to reach for mine
   And when you finally do, I don’t respond to the touch
   I don’t want to hold your hand and you know that very well but try anyway hoping a miracle will take place
   But nothing changed, and your stupid canine nature makes for a risible scene of your grasp attempting to receive heat from my hollow carcass
 

   What will our future be like? You ask and I don’t respond
   I watch your mind working an utopia you want to be true
   Playful fingers running through my chest, wanting to reach further inside
   L’obstacle invisible of my supposed will is a leash you helped yourself to
   One you don’t want to be free of
   When will you repair my wall and stop waiting for me to build yours?

   There comes dawn with fiery white horses pulling a golden chariot
   A symphonic silence calling my name once more
   But I prefer to sin for another day
   Bring another flower to her death-bed
   Taste innocence anew

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