I AM MY NIGHTMARE MIRROR

calliope retailer now hating her job infinite bad mood caution case plastic face pourquoi s’habiller en pute?   bad pay from life for all the efforts required working woman heartful maiden laid in class and grace in poor manor, poor family working for medication and food   never lost, never had will die in gray no marriage to save to live in cold hell and to exist as number [is to hate yourself truly]   *** beautiful eyes has the blonde girl at the bus stop low-key kinda shy   *** “she’s from the devil”, said the old man behind me as the car passed by a tomboy girl. *** have it right for all the rest complete path, visible marked down goals I know what to do in college   *** two japanese persons mom and daughter speak in their first language and laugh happily on the way back home   *** He was kissing his sister In front of the guy that was kissing her before There was a heated argument And I was not interested   *** I don’t know myself, all I know is that I really need a therapist righ

(outdated version//new version on the book ) after noticing my eyes on you your eyes turned to me saw on my face something I could never describe and they glistened and you looked away my half smile when you looked back was enough to make you lose control and whisper the feeling burning up your throat i love you   and I felt bad for you because that smile was more pity than affection you were lost in me and had no idea of how dark would be the future not knowing the amount of influence I had built up on you lacking the ability to stand up on your jelly legs eaten by the butterflies in your stomach   you’re behind me and I feel your eyes with beams of love covering my body whole and it makes me more and more depressed unable to say a word and start a conversation ashamed of my lack of feeling for you and how I can’t avoid keeping your hopes up only to feed on this blind adulation   one of us has to die tonight pumpkins will be smashed in the backyard and it wont be me for I have the sta